after long time it happens that I don't feel to sleep.
somehow I feel to sleep but when I close eyes something is not allowing me to sleep..
I feel ok
there is no anything wrong but still like to stay awake.
can not say there is wrong happened with me.
Nothing is wrong
but still donot allowing myself to sleep.
Noone is with me.
the heart is empty.
noone is around me.
I am not missing anyone
I am first time in my own mood of loneliness.
I donot blame anyone even not blaming life
I am not blaming God.
I ma not blaming myself also.
sincerely Happy in my solitude
I feel that this night may never become morning.
I feel to lost in the darkness of solitude.
Just sounds are voluming outside.
but there is deep within me some silence I feel.
it seems eternal silence..
The sky is also in silence mode.
Really this is the time where unseen God is there to feel.
I want to stay forever in this darkness of silence.
No one is here to disturb my being..
No thoughts are forcing me towards life.
No heart is having any presence it dwells with silence..
I feel that darkness is Beauty of the world.
I feel to dance in the darkness.
the air talks to me.
it joys my solitude..
Inner silence of soul I am feeling right now.
Silence is speaking to me.
silence is talking to me
silence is telling me
silence is smiling.
silence is real-one of God-being.
God is asking nothing..
only being silence in soul of heart is darkness
the silence of darkness is not fearful.
The beloved also lost in to the deep innerly soul silence.
human beloved can not break the reality of darkness silence.
it is 12:06.
without stopping I am writing.
the character of God is solitude
silence is passing through air and through soul and in to the heart.
Heart feels cold wave throug soul
